Clouds of Cotton Candy

Like every kid, I used to love cotton candy. I remember being excited to see the cotton candy vendors at fairs and begging my mom to let us get some. I remember how sticky my fingers and face always felt after, and how I always rushed to find a bathroom to make that sticky feeling …

One in Three

In the US, 81% of women have reported experiencing some form of sexual harassments or sexual assault in their lifetime (NSVRC 2021). For those who might like a definition, the legal definition of sexual harassment and sexual assault are as follows: sexual harassment: unwelcome sexual advances, requests for sexual favors, and other verbal or physical …

Home..

I moved to Texas in 2008, and I cried every night for the first 6 months. I've lived here for 12 years and I've always felt like an outsider. I never thought of this place as home. But then again, I never understood what home really was. I used to consider Okinawa as my home. …

Trash

I'm making myself sick again. With everything that's going on...the fact that...the only people really reaching out to me are men who want sex or nudes...doesn't help. I feel like trash. Like I'm worth nothing more than what my body can do for someone else. I have nightmares of him almost every night now...and they …

Grow As We Go

Someone showed me a post today, and he got his dream. I don't really know how long he's been dreaming of CSU, but I know his original dream didn't include me in it so it's only fitting that when he finally achieves his dream I'm not in it either. At one point, we shared the …

Loose Ends

So, I did today what I could not bring myself to do just a few weeks ago. I don't entirely remember when he did it, but he rid himself of any ties to me at least a month ago, if not more. He deleted me from his social media, clearing any trace of me or …

Wildcat

I expected to get reject from Grad school during my first round of applications. Everyone I talked to told me to expect that. Well...now I have a big decision to make. Not only did I get accepted into UCF's Anthropology Master's program...I just got an email from CSU telling me that I've been admitted. I …

My Once Upon A Time

I grew up on fairy tales. I grew up hearing that true love concurs all, that the prince will ride in on a white horse and save the princess, that the princess has to kiss a few frogs before she'll meet her prince, or that sometimes the villain in the story might not be who …

The Reasons

I wrote a letter last week, and maybe I shouldn't have. I wrote a letter when I felt vulnerable and alone. I wrote a letter because I was scared. I wrote a letter because I had things I needed to say, things I wanted to say in case something ever happened. I know I should …

My Darling Valentine

I used to love Valentine's day, even when I knew I didn't have a Valentine. I would start thinking mid January about what kind of candy I wanted to make, and usually the week of or the day before Valentine's day I would spend hours pouring chocolate into molds and then placing the finished candy …